So much of the writing today has you thinking thoughts, actuating actions, delving into directions. What to do with or about - something? How to do this and/or that? Living Whole is about feeling something, going deep inside your Self where true contemplation, actuation, happening is fueled, nurtured, sustained. If you are able to feel what you are doing, the directions you are leaning, then your efforts fill you with purpose, no longer are they empty motion
Who I Am Psychologically
Who I Am Ontologically
Definition of Ontological - The study or concern about what kinds of things exist – what entities there are in the universe. It derives from the Greek onto (being) and logia (written or spoken discourse). It is a branch of metaphysics, the study of first principles or the essence of things.
It has me consider where and why in our evolution did we develop this divisive emotion, especially since all emotion is meant to serves us? Then a question . . . Is the emotion of anger a part of us to allow instinct to direct us in times of danger? Anger is a caustic emotion, especially when held in. It churns within looking for anything to fuel its corrosiveness, . . .injustice . . . outrage . . . indignation . . . outlandishness . . . inappropriateness. In. Out. Turning every thought possible to fuel, building quickly and holding so tight we can become unable to articulate just what ignited the anger initially. And it is not content to stay within. It wants to propel out, wants to move outside us with such force it become visceral, separating our body from our mind and spirit. Is this separation of our body from our mind and spirit what protect us in times of danger?
Sunday afternoon I watched again the beautiful, artful movie “Out of Africa.” Early as the story’s unfolding, the character Karen Blixen, played by Meryl Streep, is confronted by a lioness who is attaching her cattle. Enraged, unable to find her rifle, she grabs a whip and attacks the lioness with this simple piece of leather. Her sense of anger toward her predicament primeval in her actions as she continuously raises then brings the whip down on whatever is in its way. This separation enabling her to attack the lioness, turn the tables, fend the creature off saving the herd. Now that makes anger a healthy emotion, yes? Anger allows our instinct to take charge for a time when too much thinking . . . might end our existence.
Yet what of the history of anger that resulted in war, murder, destruction? What benefit did anger serve here? What value does anger serve that shut us off from others, from our Self? I sit here contemplating others’ anger and the times I have allowed it to ignite my own. I reflect how sad and useless all that anger was, and the damage left in its wake. In my awareness I feel the deterioration to my Self and how I let it to seep out into others. Why do we continue to allow the corrosiveness of anger held in to distort and harm us? And then let it seeps out onto others doing the same to those it touches, igniting anger in them, contagious combustion.
We enter a time of thanksgiving, reflection, gratitude, and hope. How much more fulfilling are these feelings when our bodies are free of the depleting emotion of anger, its hate, its negativity, its resentment? In these weeks before we enter the official holiday season reflect, feel, where you hold anger within your Self, and . . . let it seep away. Let the anger for a person; the negativity for a situation; the resentment for an action fall away. Let your inner space empty and feel what takes its place - beauty and joy and contentment just may find a home and enhance the season for you and everyone around you.
Happy Thanksgiving . . . Enjoy, Maggie